August? What August?

I can’t believe August just went by without a single post and it wasn’t a boring month take note, far far from that.

August 24 Mama went through another Mastectomy. Yep, another cyst was found in her left breast and she opted to just have the whole organ removed. I was scared, scared for her, for us. I was plain mind numbingly scared, period. To make myself feel better I desperately tried to remember her operation last year, trying to remember if I was this scared and if so what I did to calm myself but for the life of me I cant seem to remember that I was this scared last year, ugh.

Thankfully James kept trying to calm down and though I kept repeating the same sentiments over and over about every other day, three weeks before the operation (can you just imagine how irritating I must have been?), and he just kept on telling me that everything was gonna be okay. (Thank you God for my husband!)

Ironically, come operation day I was calm. Yep, after weeks of being scared and worried to bits, crazy huh? I don’t know, somehow I felt that everything really is gonna be alright (maybe because James kept repeating this every other day for three weeks and it finally sank in. LOL) Surprisingly the operation didn’t take too long, last year it was about 3 hours and this time they were finishing up an hour and a half after they started and yes, it was successful. The worries did not end there though because we still had to wait for the biopsy results but somehow I knew deep inside that whatever the results may be, we’ll get through it.

A week after the surgeon declared the lump benign (non-cancerous). Yey for us but we waited a week more for the oncologist to look over the results and thankfully she said the same thing. *happy dance*

See how eventful my August was? All that and I failed to blog about it? Boo for me. Oh well, as I always say better late than later. Hahaha. : )

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To everyone who reached out to us in this trying time, on behalf of our family I would like to express how truly thankful we are. If not for your prayers and words of encouragement, we would not have been as strong. I especially appreciate those who took the time to text or call for updates. In this day and age, anyone could just go online and wait for my status updates in Facebook or Twitter, thus I truly, truly appreciate those who made an extra effort to reach out to us personally.

Not that I am discounting those who made their well wishes known in Facebook, I am extremely grateful for that as well. All prayers are welcome. It’s just that I am truly, truly touched by those who actually took the time to check on Mama, to check on Papa, to check on me and James and did not just rely on whatever Facebook status I posted. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

J+M Crazy Chronicles

We've been married for almost three years now (but technically we've only been living together for almost two) and it has been crazy, I tell ya! But nope, I wouldnt have it any other way. We're not always lovey dovey, we're not the sweetest couple in the whole universe but I love, love our silly, crazy moments. One time I asked him: "Hon ganito kaya talaga magusap lahat ng mag-asawa sa buong mundo?" He said: "Hindi, tayo lang. Baliw ka kasi. KEI FINE!! hahaha. :)

Let me share with you a little bit of our craziness:

Crazy Moment #1

Background Story:  We were both too lazy to switch off the lights as it involves getting up from bed to actually switch them off. (laziness personified)

Maan: Hon, paki patay yung ilaw please.

James: Ikaw na hon, antok na ko e.

Maan: Hon ikaw na antok na din ako e.

*James nagtulugtulugan..*

Maan: (bright idea! ding ding ding ding!!) Hon, hala ka may ipis! (with matching talon na parang takot na takot) Patayin mo dali!!

James: (tayo din bigla) Asan, asan??

Maan: Andun, andun! Dun sa may switch ng ilaw!

James: (nagpunta sa may switch may hawak na tsinelas, ready to kill) Asan?

Maan: Pakipatay yung ilaw. K. Thanks. Bwahahahahahaha...

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Crazy Moment #2

Maan: (kagagaling lang ng CR) Hon, namiss mo ba ko?

James: Ha, bakit naman? Magkasama kaya tayo o.

Maan: Kasi nag CR ako e. nyahahahaha.

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Crazy Moment #3

Background Story: James hates, HATES watching local movies sa sinehan. He tolerates DVDs pero never pag sa sinehan. But miracle of miracles, napapayag ko sya to watch No Other Woman. After the movie, while on our way out:

* James nagkukusot ng mata. Inantok ata sa sinehan.

Maan: (in a really, really loud voice. loud enough for the rest of the moviegoers to hear) Uy hon ano ka ba! wag ka nga umiyak, sine lang yun! Ok lang yan! (sabay tapik sa balikat)

Bwaahahahaa! I swear he was so shocked, he wasnt able to react agad. Afterwards he kept giving me the evil eye and I almost died laughing the whole day. ahahaha.

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Crazy Moment #4

Background Story: We were watching Walang Hanggan, the scene was Nathan was about to commit suicide because his wife, Katerina left him.

Maan: Hon, wag ka mag gaganyan ha. Hindi naman kita iiwan e.

James: Ewan ko sayo.

nyahahahaha.

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Oh my gosh, writing these out made me realize na ako nga ata talaga ang baliw. hahahaha. Here's to love and craziness!! <3

Cuteness!!

This is too cute!! :)

My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com

10 Years

3,650 days, 120 months, 10 years. TEN YEARS.

I honestly cannot wrap my head around the idea that it has been 10 years already. June 05 2002, well technically June 4 but it was near midnight and we thought 5 was a better number. LOL. The days flew by so fast but now that I look back so much has happened. We have been on this never-ending roller coaster ride of ups and downs and I cherish every moment of it.

Crazy how back then I didn’t even think it will last this long or that the relationship would eventually lead to marriage. I mean I know James was a keeper but I was very realistic. He was after all my first boyfriend and basing it on my friends, first boyfriends don’t usually last. Well, I guess somebody up there wanted to prove me wrong, lucky me. :D

James is my everything. He’s my rock and my strength. He literally keeps me sane. I even appreciate that he drives me crazy sometimes (okay a lot of times) because it allows me to learn more about him, about us, about myself. I always say this and I will never get tired of saying this: our relationship is not perfect but it is our kind of perfect.

I could go on and on about this but my words will never be enough. I just feel so blessed to have James in my life. People keep telling me it’s time to have kids, but if they even have an idea on just how perfect everything is right at this very moment, then they’d probably agree with us that we’re perfectly fine as is. =)

I love you hon, always. 10 years to forever..

My Future Baby: Samsung WB150F

Meet my future baby (yes I'm claiming it! hahaha..)

 Samsung WB150F

Features And Specifications:


Point & shoot digital camera


14.0 megapixel image sensor


Schneider KREUZNACH 18x optical zoom lens


Optical image stabilization system


720p HD video recording Samsung WB150F 30 Fps


3.0 inch AMOLED monitor


Motion capture


Smart auto


Live panorama


Auto back-up


Remote view finder


WiFi connectivity


Micro SD/SDHC/SDXC memory card slot


Built-in microphone & speaker


Integrated flash light


Self timer


Face & smile detection


Yep, Wi-Fi enabled!!! Fell in love with the white one but it also comes in black. To top it off, it's less than 15K!!! love it! :D  we will meet soon my baby! :D

Life Dreams

I know I’ve already posted about my 2012 Bucket List but lately I’ve been thinking more of long-term planning. Oh well, a girl can dream right? So here goes:

1. Build a house

Lately I’ve been surfing about buying lots and building homes. I’ve stalked websites about furniture, light fixtures, etc. I’m not really sure how this came about but for the past couple of weeks the thought of owning a house, our own house has occupied my daydreams. It’s freaking expensive and I’m not sure if my salary can afford it (I have not even dared compute as it might burst my bubble. LOL) but I promised myself that someday, somehow we will have our own house. We initially planned to build the house before getting married but reality bites I guess. Probably it was a blessing in disguise as shuttling between Parañaque and Las Piñas has allowed us to spend more time with our parents, which is great but still it wouldn’t hurt to build our own home.

2. Have our own business

One constant dream of ours is to open our own business in the food industry. We both love to eat and cook thus it makes perfect sense for us to want to open our own restaurant or a catering business, somewhere along that line. We don’t have enough funds for this yet plus I think passion is not enough to sustain a business. We need to study and gain experience first before diving in. When we will find the time and the money to do this, I don’t know but hopefully soon.

3. Travel

I’m happiest when I am at home and I very rarely go out. But there’s something about exploring another place that excites the heck out of me. I’m not very sociable so it’s not really about meeting other people. I think for me it’s more of travelling with James and getting to share travel memories with him. Yep, it’s as shallow as that. Hahaha.

 

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So that’s about it for now, I’ll just update it over time.

If you’ll notice having kids or starting a family is not included in the list and I know a normal person would wonder why. I’ve actually been thinking about it again lately but I have come to the conclusion that no, I don’t want kids as of this moment. James doesn’t want to have kids either, at least not now.

Yes I know people are gonna raise their eyebrows so high they’ll probably hit the ceiling and yes I know there’s a big, huge possibility we won’t be able to have kids if we delay this but please keep in mind that this is our life we’re talking about. Key words: OUR LIFE. We made the decision and we’re ready to face the consequences, whatever they may be.

To be perfectly honest, I really don’t want to have kids just because society dictates me to have them. I feel we are not yet ready financially, physically and emotionally so why push it? Why get yourself into something you are not ready for? When I got married I was 100% ready to be a wife but right at this very moment I am not yet ready to become a mom. Yes, I can change my mind, that’s the beauty of life but for now our decision stands, so I hope you'll be happy for us just like we're very much happy right now. :)

our Holy Week in Instagram

I was intially planning on blogging about our "vacation" but since I'm all out of words and energy, I thought of recreating the experience through photos, enter INSTAGRAM. :)

My great grandmother's name is Magdalena
and mama had a Mary Magdalene statue
made in her memory. She goes out every year
during Holy Week to join the processions. Here's
Tita Jane dressing her up for Day 1.

Procession - Good Friday

Kalibo Paparazzi LOL! :D

Here she is with her pink gown. We usually
change the feel of her carriage every year
through the flowers. She also has about
2-3 more gowns in storage plus a handful of
jewelry and crowns.

After Aklan, we went by bus to Iloilo.
A sure sign that we already arrived?
Sugarcane Juice! love love! :)

This has got to be the best Inasal in Iloilo,
a far departure from the commercialized
Mang Inasal, seriously!!

Meet Butit and Bogart. They're the sweetest! <3

Beautiful Iloilo

I saw a rainbow!

Can you spot his manpurse? bwahahaha! :D

Sigh, it was fun but like all vacations, definitely bitin! will have to go back soon!

busy, busy, busy

I can feel it, yep it’s gonna be a super busy week for me and the fam bam this week. Holy Friday, we’re going home to Aklan for the Holy Week and then come Easter Sunday, James and I would ride the bus (yep the bus!) to Iloilo so we can spend time with his side of the family as well. This trip alone can easily fill up my Monday until Thursday what with all the packing and travel arrangements that I would need to check and double check. However the thing is, I am equally busy with work as well and it will be a miracle if I am able to pull off everything I need to do before we leave. Waaaah.

Not that I am complaining though. I do love my job and yes it is eons, yep EONS away from my previous post. It’s scary at times because I have a boatload of responsibilities on my shoulders but the mere opportunity excites me. Lately I realized that I haven’t really talked about my work on this blog, well not as much as my previous jobs before, probably because well one, I know for a fact that they’re very strict with the confidentiality clause so I can’t just go ahead and blab my head off (not that I have anything to blab about). Two, I’m so busy as it is that I barely have enough time for recreational activities and stuff (i.e. movie dates, cooking, etc.) that I usually save my weekends for those. And three, I don’t know, as I said, I guess I just don’t feel the need to voice out anything about my work as of the moment. I’m happy, it’s as simple as that.

Cancer-wise, well treatments are still ongoing. The schedule now is every three weeks and thank God there have been no complications. Yey! I’m still anxious about whether there are still cancer cells or not but as the doctor said, we should just take it one day at a time. So yeah, I guess that’s what we’re doing. :)

 

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Oops, I just realized I haven’t blogged about our Hong Kong plans, um, maybe next time. Hahaha.

curls curls curls..

whew. my posts have been pretty heavy lately. time for some fluff! ;) my hair has always been a point of contention for me. i love my waves, not really a big fan of super straight hair but then again i'm too lazy to fix my hair so I end up with really dry and frizzy hair, ugh!

I've actually been contemplating of getting a digiperm but I'm  a still a tiny bit afraid I might end up looking like a poodle. LOL. :D So for now, I'm just happy that I finally found a hairstylist who actually knows how to curl my hair the way I want it! :D (of course I had to include an instagram edited photo. hahaha..)

2012 Bucket List

I know I haven’t been back since, uh, I can’t even remember. LOL. I’ve been so busy lately, okay scratch that, I’ve just basically been too tired to write. Yep, that’s my lame excuse. Hahaha. So much has happened the past few weeks I can’t even recall them all, but I do have one gigantic news: I HAVE A NEW JOB. No, I didn’t plan for this. The opportunity came out of nowhere and here I am and yes, I am very much happy. :)

So it’s 2012 already and I thought maybe I should make a list of the things I want to do, the places I want to go to or go back to, that sort of thing. It started out as a very, very short list and now it’s about a mile long. Hahaha. With my schedule, I know I probably won’t be able to do all of them but I think it would be nice to look back at this list one year after and see what I have accomplished. So here goes:

GOALS:

1. Invest in mutual funds / stock market

2. Start a retirement fund for mama and papa

3. Open BPI save up

4. Start exercising at least once a week

5. Travel

6. Start a business with James

7. Get promoted / get a raise

8. Save 30,000 by end of the year

9. Eat 1 fruit / Vegetable a day

10. Watch plays

11. Watch concerts

BOOK LIST:

1. Percy Jackson -2

2. Percy Jackson – 3

3. Percy Jackson – 4

4. Percy Jackson – 5

5. Before Ever After

6. Order of the Penguins

7. 100 Questions Filipino Kids Ask

8. Dreaming of Chanel – Charlotte Smith

9. The Best of Archie Comics

10. Hunger Games – 1

11. Hunger Games – 2

12. Hunger Games – 3

13. Falling Together

14. Fashion + Food – Jenni Epperson

15. Modelland – Tyra Banks

16. Seriously I’m Kidding – Ellen DeGeneres

17. Steve Jobs

18. Eat This Not That

19. Battle Hym of the Tiger Mother

20. Bobbi Brown MakeUp Manual

21. The Happiness Project

22. My Maid Invests in the Stock Market

23. between loss and forever

RESTAURANTS TO TRY:

1. Cibo

2. John and Yoko

3. Chili’s

4. Red Box

5. Bulgogi Brothers

6. Myron’s Place

7. Wee Nam Kee

8. Manang’s Chicken

9. Sugi

10. Choto Stop

11. Recipes by Cafe Metro

12. Krazy Garlik

13. King One Hot Pot

14. Flapjacks

15. Baja Mexican Cantina

16. Kimpura

17. Fish and Co.

18. Hossein’s

19. Chicken Charlie

20. Shawarma Snack Center

21. Cafe Mary Grace

22. Tender Bob’s

23. Bellevue Buffet

24. Wooden Horse Steakhouse

25. Vivere Rooftop

26. binondo food wok

27. mr.kebab

28. whistlestop
29.8065 Bagnet
30. TongYang

PLACES TO SEE / COME BACK TO:

1. Baguio

2. La Luz

3. Bohol

4. Ilocos

5. Boracay

6. Hong Kong

7. Singapore

8. Bangkok

9. Davao (Maxima by the Sea, Pearl Farm)

10. Batanggas

11. Guimaras (Kenyama Resort)

12. Concepcion Iloilo

13. Siquijor

14. Biri, Northern Samar

15. Palaui Island and Anguib Beach, Cagayan North

16. LaMesa Ecopark

17. Sumilon Island – Cebu

18. Calao Caves

19. Sonia’s Garden

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See, told ya it's long but a girl can dream right? Have a great New Year everyone! :)

p.s.

If you'll notice having a baby is not on my list. Wondering why? Well because I'm declaring my 2012 as the year of fun: no pressure, no worries. :) let's do this!

starting anew

So I haven’t been back here for weeks now (surprise, surprise). It has just been really crazy on my side of the earth.

As most may now know, I have resigned from my current job and will be transferring to another company by November 14. This was truly unexpected. I have thought of leaving for about more times than I can count but I’ve never acted on it primarily because I was scared. But I guess somebody up there had other plans. The opportunity landed on my lap and I grabbed it like I’ve never grabbed anything before, and yes it paid off, yippee. :)

I have about three weeks left with my current company and I must admit leaving is kind of bittersweet. It’s definitely not easy leaving something that has been ingrained into your system for the past four years but hey, we all have to move on at some point and I guess this is my time. I’m scared about starting anew but I just feel it’s really time for me to move on.

James is now on his last week (yes he resigned as well). He’ll be starting his food business as soon as we get the money from his insurance. As much as I am nervous about the whole risk aspect, I am so excited for him. His dreams are slowly coming into reality and for that I am extremely ecstatic for him. :)

on the cancer front: Mama is doing well. Yey! It’s a bit tough at times, especially with the weekly chemo sessions, but our main goal is to get through this and I believe we will. We are on the road to recovery and yes, we will get through this. Cancer begone! I am a little worried about the finances though, but I am praying the Lord will provide. haay.

32nd Manila International Book Fair

It's been almost a week and I'm still high from the book fair. hahaha. :) I loved it, it was like heaven on earth for me. I walked four hours but I still felt I didnt have enough time. Okay scratch that. I didnt have enough money. hahaha. I spent so much my wallet is practically crying buckets. :P Oh well, it's not like I always buy stuff for me, so there. hahaha. :) 

James was with me the whole four hours, which I did find surprising because he is not at all a fan of books (maybe he is just a fan of me. mwahahaha..) But seriously it amazes me how he was able to withstand 4 full hours of nothing but books, when I almost die in boredom with 2 hours worth of Magic the Gathering. I love him more for that. yiheee. :)

Sharing a few pictures of the fair:

32nd Manila International Book Fair

met Samantha Sotto.. such an inspiration!

so excited to read her book!

eggs rule!

our heavy loot. 

thanks honey for carrying them! :)

other loot:

Percy Jackson-so not me, but loving it so far.. :)

some books from PSICOM

special request for the father dear.. 

ugh, I can foresee a yearlong 

facebook status marathong posting.. :P

a few finds at National Bookstore..
this was where I wish I really
had more money.
sooo many great finds, plus all books
at 20% off!

pitstop at Summit.. love, love them!

the first things we bought, perfect gifts!

gifts for some of my pamangkins / inaanaks

at the end of the day:

wawa naman, super pagod.. 

Overall, I had an awesome time. Next year I'm definitely taking Nics and Dorot! (and James of course..)

Bright Red Lipstick

I think mentioned here before that I am the ultimate anti-kikay, well I changed my mind. I think I'm just the laziest kikay that ever lived. LOL. :)

I love fashion, make-up and all that but I am just too lazy to do this every single day. my fault really.

But then again there are days when I just want to up the ante a little bit. Case In Point: The Bright Red Lipstick Day. :)

Now I'm not sure if I'm ready to debut this look to the whole wide world, but I did love how it looked on me..








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rambling on and on

It has been a crazy few weeks. Work was hectic, home life was busy and my social life? well, let's just say it doesnt exist. I need a vacation. STAT. (December, my love, why are you still so far away? waaah.)

Chemo Update: we're done with the first part of the chemo (yey!). now the second part entails weekly chemo sessions and another set of meds. I have to admit I'm a little bit scared of this. Chemo every three weeks was intense enough as it is, now chemo every week? sigh.

On to some work news: James is still adamant on resigning. I dont have any problems with that naman, my only condition was he starts the preparations while he is still working. So far we're well over our heads with the preps. yikes. hopefully in a couple of weeks, he'll be able to tender his resignation na. excited and scared much. :P

As for me? It has been 4 years since I entered the company. 4 FREAKING YEARS. Can't believe it. Seriously where did the time go? I have been thinking about this and I think I narrowed it down to two possibilities. One, I'm so happy with my job I hardly noticed the time flew by. Two, I'm just plain old apathetic with my work life. Hmm. let me get back to you on that. 

Tomorrow, we're going to the Manila International Bookfair. I'm so excited I have been unable to sleep for days. hahaha. OA. I love, love, LOVE books and it has been a while since I've actually held one. I have been into ebooks for quite some time now, but the thing is, nothing really beats holding a solid book. Let's just hope my wallet doesnt cry aftewards. hahaha. :)

Will post my loot soon! :)

Cant Fight Biology

I chanced upon this episode of Grey's Anatomy last weekend and I was in tears yet again. (LOL.) What Derek said to Meredith in the last scene was basically what James was telling me all this time and that really hit me hard. here goes:

Derek: Here's what we're gonna do. No more doctors, no more labs. You and I we have a lot of sex. Maybe we make a baby, maybe we do not. Maybe you get Alzheimer's, maybe you do not. Just screw the odds, screw science. Let's just live. Whatever happens. Happens. Me and you. Okay?

Just like Meredith, I was the anxious one. I wanted to undergo tests, treatment, whatever. And I wanted it right away, without even trying if we could do it naturally. Yes, I was the crazy one. And James? He was the semi-crazy one. LOL. (you didnt think I was gonna say he was the sane one, did ya? hahaha.)

I think the main reason I was scared about not being able to have kids (well aside from hearing other people talk about us or telling me straight me to my face that having kids is the end all and be all of married life) was because I didnt want to disappoint James. I mean, he likes kids, he's great with kids so I thought he automatically wanted kids.Well apparently not, well not yet anyway.

I think it was just last week when we talked about kids again and yes he is still pretty much decided that it's still not yet time to have one. Me? Well I'm just basically relieved. At least I no longer spend days and nights (and a few afternoons) worrying about having kids and disappointing him. And yes, I wholeheartedly agree that this is just not the time to have a baby (see previous posts).

Now I just have to worry about deflecting other people's comments and I'm so not good at this. Either I stomp away then cry or I say something I later regret. oh well, cant win them all.

 

oh and just in case you guys are wondering, we are open about adopting. (well at least I am. but I'm not gonna worry my little ahead about it for now.) I'm perfectly happy with the way things are going with me and James and that's all that matters for now.

on a rainy Sunday

it's been raining the past few days and I love, LOVE it! :) Rain makes me really, really happy.. :)

image from fun4friends.net

I've said this about a million times, I dont really know but the rain just lifts my spirits. so yey for that! :)

on the CA (cancer) front, we've been doing well, I think. Mama just had her second chemo session. We switched to a smaller hospital and I think it's one of the best decisions ever! Why?

1. hospital fees are cheaper (FACT: we didnt pay a single cent because it was covered by Philhealth)

2. the doctor's PF was lower, like thousands lower.

3. the people there were super nice! (well except for the masungit billing ladies but I didnt really mind that much.)

Mama has lost most of her hair and now that I think about it, it's really not that bad. She now wears a bandanna when going out, which is actually kinda cute. :) we have yet to see this cycle's side effects (vomiting, nausea, exhaustion, etc.) and I'm hoping it wont be worse than the last time. 

Me, I've been feeling extra tired the past couple of days. I've been sneaking naps in the office (sorry boss!) because I could barely sleep at home. going to work last Friday was really hard for me cause I just wanted to sleep in until Monday. sigh. 

I just kept reminding myself that I'm doing this for my family, for Mama especially. I normally like doing what I do but there are just some days that I feel like giving up and throwing a big old tantrum. Thankfully, this is where James comes in and he just hugs all the stress and exhaustion away. 

Thank you Lord for my family, without them I dont know how I could even do all these. 

p.s.

thanks also for sending the rain! :)

 

James Sleeping I

I love, love taking pictures of James while he's sleeping. He looks so innocent. it's so cute. LOL! :)

 I was supposed to sleep but obviously we have no pillows left.

We planned to watch two movies back to back but look at why weren't able to. haha. :) 

"five minutes!"

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I think I have a few more of these. Will post as soon as I find them. (i love you hon! mwahahaha..)

the past few weeks

So many things have happened for the past few weeks, my mind can barely keep up. I want to write them all down before I forget but I seem to have been having a hard time forming sentences with coherent words. But anyway, here's me trying:

JAMES AND WORK

James has been applying for jobs for the past few weeks. He went to three companies passed everything except for the final interviews. It breaks my heart seeing him down and upset, especially because I was the one who pushed him to try and enter the call center world. He is not the office type, I've known this for years I told him to go for it. No harm in trying, right? Well, I was wrong. 

He would beat himself up for not passing. He was so hard on himself. I kept telling him it's fine and that's it's normal especially for someone who has zero experience. For me, it's amazing enough that he got through all the exams and intial interviews but he has been so hard on himself lately that it really kills me. Deep inside I knew he wanted to start his own food business and that's where his passion is but it's a huge risk for the both of us and I was scared as heck. 

But seeing him so sad made me realize how I love him too much to put him through office hell. I spoke with my mom about it and she encouraged me to encourage James to go for his dreams. Funny cause technically the wife should have been more supportive than the mother in law. LOL. so anyway to make the long story short James and I discussed it and I promised that I was gonna stop pestering him to join the corporate world. Enter: THE BUSINESS.

THE BUSINESS

We started out with the idea of selling cooked food, a mini restaurant of sorts, then narrowed it down to a more specific concept. We've started preparing already, scouted places (found one already actually), armed ourselves with loads of information about the business, canvassed for equipment, trolled the web endlessly for suppliers, etc. We were basically ready to open in a few weeks when THE CALL came.

THE CALL

It was I think a Saturday afternoon when one of the companies he applied to called him and asked him to report for training this week. He was happy, and I must admit it was a good opportunity. They call it Near Hire Training, meaning he wasnt hired, but they were training him to get hired. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I should have been ecstatic but I honestly do not want to see that sad little face again, so much so that I was willing to take that huge leap of starting the business. 

Well, he seems to be enjoying himself for the past few days and he seems really excited about the prospect of getting hired. Me? I dont know. I'm trying to be the supportive wife and at the same time I cant stop this nagging feeling that he's doing all this not because he truly wants to but it's just all because of me. The last thing I would want him to think is that he failed me. It honestly doesnt matter anymore if we'll go through financial hell or if we have to delay having kids for the next few years. I just want him to be happy in what he does. Really, really happy.

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Now what about me? What's up in my world? Well, I've had a pretty good work week last week. Appraisals have been discussed and yes I got a pretty good salary raise, far more than what I was expecting. It's nice to see and hear that they actually appreciate the work that I do. 

This job is far from being perfect but I actually like what I am doing and I like the people I work with (well most of them. LOL.) So yeah I guess I'm basically happy where I am right now career-wise. But then again, I keep having this feeling that I have to try and step out of my comfort zone. Maybe it's about time I start taking risks. You'll never know, right?  We'll see what the rest of the year brings, I guess.

Well I guess that's it for now. 'Til the next update. :)