much too soon

This week I learned of a former w@wie lost her husband of almost two years. Their names sounded familiar, so I searched through my archived emails and that was when I realized that Aimee, the wife, was actually one of the few w@wies I have been in contact with outside the group.

I was in shock. Just a little over a year ago, we were planning both of our weddings and since we lived in practically the same area, we had basically the same list of prospective suppliers. I remember she was really nice to me and replied to my emails even if she was busy planning her own big day.

But what really struck me about her was how happy she was about marrying Archie. From their pictures it was crystal clear how much they loved each other. After our weddings I wasnt able to stay in touch with her and it really broke my heart to hear that Archie passed away.

I can only imagine what she must be feeling. I mean, they just started their lives together, how can he be gone already? It’s too soon. Much too soon.

Beauty Night

I was supposed to sleep already but I couldnt so I decided to try out some of the stuff I bought lately. yey! :) 

lately I've been excessively reading beauty blogs about hair and skin products. I know I'm a bit late in the game, most of my friends started when we were in our teens. But blessed with good genes, I didnt really see the need to slather on tons stuff. I'm a firm believer of : "if it ain't broke, dont fix it", plus I could not, for the life of me, stand sticky and overly fragrant lotions and potions so basically for the early part of my adult life, I stayed away from these. 

But when I turned 25 I realized I might as well start taking care of my skin more, thus the current obsession on hair and skin products. I still shy away from lotions though, but I did level up and now use moisturizers, yey for me! haha. 

So anyway, tonight I decided to try two of my latest buys:

Human Heart Nature Intense Moisture Hair Mask

photo from Human Heart Nature

Asian Secrets Lulur Whitening Body Scrub

photo from Women's Central

Will let you guys know what I think about these two soon. =)

note to self

note to self:

" joy comes to those who are willing to let go of the familiar and happily embrace the unknown."

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curveball

I didn't see this coming. seriously.

For almost three years now, the whole game plan was after getting married, Maan moves to Japan. period. no ifs, no buts. it was crystal clear from the get go. I understood it, my family understood it, I even told my boss to expect it. That’s how sure I was that I was leaving Manila. But I guess somebody up there decided to throw us a curveball.

I really did not think this was one of our options. I asked James because my mom wanted me to, but never in a million years did I ever think he would actually consider it, much less say yes. And yet here we are, up to our noses with information about rice and mills and pigs and feeds. It’s all so crazy. My whole world has turned upside down in a matter of days. We have yet to make final plans but from what I can see, James is leaning towards taking this option instead.

Half of me is happy and excited but the other half is scared to bits. I know my family would jump for joy should we choose to stay here in Manila, on the other hand this is definitely a huge, GIGANTIC risk: starting from scratch, building a business from the ground up, a business we didn't even think we’d actually want, and that’s insanely scary. No, it’s not because I dont have faith in James, I know he’ll be great at it. He has the entrepreneur mojo, that much I am sure of.

It’s this whole “this is not part of our life plan” thing that drives me insane. Okay, I’ll go ahead and admit it: I am the biggest control freak in this side of the metro. I’m all for surprises, but something this huge scares the heck out of me.

I asked James if he’s at all scared and he said: “no.” I asked why and he answered: “dyan ako tatanda e..” that made me smile and feel much, much better. :)

he also shared this with me:

“ your decisions are always right if you're brave enough to face it's consequences..”

sigh. why does he always make sense every time I feel like I’m not making any? and why in heavens does he have more faith in me than I do with myself?

iphone blog test

it's been a while. havent felt like blogging lately. hopefully through
this i'll get my mojo back.

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