my V-Day gift for you

Hon,

I know I said you're the one in charge of our V-Day plans this year, but it was only because I wanted to keep you busy just so you wont notice I was making plans of my own. haha. :D

For the past few years, I have basically been twisting your arm to come up with something special for Valentine's and every single year you always make it a point to make the day extraordinary for me. 

Well this year, I wanted to shake things up a bit and make it a special one for you as well. 

So, because I love you and because it's Valentine's, I'm taking you...

wait for it, wait for it.. (ahahaha..)

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dyaraaaaaaaaaaaan...

BOWLING! 

yes, TODAY we're going bowling, my treat.

yes, i packed my rubber shoes plus socks.

yes, your bowling ball is in the car. 

(remember when I kept pestering you to open the trunk? ahhahaha)

i love you always,

maan

P.S.

i'm still looking forward to what you have planned for Monday, though. ahahahaha.. :D i love you! :D

on getting married

i came across this one while cleaning out my email. sent it to my then fiance (now husband) a year before we got married.


when i read this, i remember thinking i just have to send this to him. whew. memories.

You have known each other from the first glance of acquaintance to this point of commitment. At some point, you decided to marry. From that moment of yes, to this moment of yes, indeed, you have been making commitments in an informal way. All of those conversations that were held in a car, or over a meal, or during long walks – all those conversations that began with, "When we're married", and continued with "I will" and "you will" and "we will" – all those late night talks that included "someday" and "somehow" and "maybe" – and all those promises that are unspoken matters of the heart. All these common things, and more, are the real process of a wedding.

The symbolic vows that you are about to make are a way of saying to one another, "You know all those things that we've promised, and hoped, and dreamed – well, I meant it all, every word."Look at one another and remember this moment in time. Before this moment you have been many things to one another – acquaintance, friend, companion, lover, dancing partner, even teacher, for you have learned much from one another these past few years. Shortly you shall say a few words that will take you across a threshold of life, and things between you will never quite be the same.

For after today you shall say to the world –

This is my husband. This is my wife.

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Max's Caramel Bars

one of my ultimate faves:




a happy camper right here.. :D

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here we go again..

sigh.

well, we've been married for a little over a year now and some people have really been relentless in asking us when's the baby coming. ugh.

seriously, is this ever gonna stop? im really getting tired of all the questions. usually i would smile and just laugh when asked, but inside i get really upset, so much so that as soon as i get home, i cry. well, most of the time anyway.

i cry because i feel like i am a failure in their eyes. they make me feel like i failed my husband and the rest of the humane society just because i have not gotten pregnant yet. i pity my husband because everytime i get upset, i take it all out on him and being the great husband that he is, he just shuts up and listens, then wraps me im a big tight hug afterwards.

i guess i could not really blame those people who pry because they dont know that the mere idea of not having the ability to bear kids is one of my biggest fears and how upset i get everytime i get asked the baby question. my fault for just smiling and cracking jokes, when inside i feel like bursting into tears. sigh.

truth be told, i am currently enjoying the time i have with James. we've been apart for most of our first year of marriage, so it's really a treat to have him right beside me every single day.

i love how we're free to go out anytime we want, we get to pack up and leave even without advance planning. we get to have all the alone time, to do whatever we want to do, without worrying ourselves sick over how to pay for diapers or milk or check ups and all those stuff included in being a parent. basically, we get to have fun on our own terms.

dont get me wrong, i'd love to have kids. we both adore kids. but maybe the reason why we're not yet blessed with one is because we are being given time to enjoy each other first, to wear each other out. LOL. :D

now if only people would stop asking. sigh.

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blogpress app

a blogspot app! yey! hopefully (again) i'll be able to update more. so much to say, so little energy to write.. sigh..




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